> Every single thing / You try to hold will / Fade like a dying ember / Grasping like a foal / Thrown in the water / You will refuse surrender
> Taken by a light / With pitiless eyes / You were afraid of leaving / Bones are razed in time / I hope you'll find a / Lull that feels like breathing
> Hand me your hand, let me look in your eyes / As my last chance to feel human begins to vaporize / Maybe it's the heat in here, maybe it's the pressure / You ought to head for the exits, the sooner, the better
> I am this great, unstable mass of blood and foam / And no one in her right mind would make my home her home / My heart's an autoclave
> I dreamt that I was perched atop a throne of human skulls / On a cliff above the ocean, howling wind and shrieking seagulls / And the dream went on forever, one single static frame / Sometimes you want to go where everybody knows your name
> I've been going through changes / And I feel so elated / To be here in your big blue world / I know I'm not your favorite / But I like when you say it / I don't need you to be my girl
> But I'll be your boy toy / You don't need to tell me twice / I'll be your boy toy / You don't need to be so nice / I'm no fun / But at least I'm not as sad as I used to be
> I'll be your boy toy if you like / And by the way you look at me I think you might / I'll be your boy toy
> Chicken noodle on my shirt / All my shoes are filled with dirt / Haven't done my laundry in a week / How many friendships can I keep?
> I am not self sufficient / All my apples have worms in them / I spill milk everywhere / When was the last time I brushed my hair?
> So thank you for putting up with my mistakes / I can't imagine how much patience that must take / And I'm such a mess but / You're the best / You're the best / I'm such a mess but you're the best
> You'll change your name or change your mind / And leave this fucked up place behind / But I'll know, I'll know
> Appearing unsightly / With devils inside me
> Nobody likes me / Everyone's afraid of me / It's because I am weird
> My breath's gettin' short and I'm unsteady / Wellin' up in tears as I lay upon your belly / Telling you I'm fine / I don't really need nobody / But you say through a sigh / That I said that lie already
> We rot, thinkin' lots about nothing / Yeah, I could spend a lifetime / Sitting here talkin' / And even if I cry all over your body / You don't really mind / Say you like your shirt soggy
> We mess around / And laugh too loud / And make the sounds / We try to hide when people are around / By blood we're bound / Through ups and downs / Their smiles and pouts / Comfort crowd / You can always count
> It's okay / It's all going to hell / But, I / I'm happy now / I've been getting older / Feel like I can dance / With the world on my shoulders
> I feel like I'm gonna break / I don't know how much more I can take / Everything's falling down
> It's okay / I'm holding back / From another / Little panic attack
> You said something's wrong / And I can say the same to you / Broken over and over again / What else can I do?
> I've tasted friendship (Ha-ha) / I've tasted you (Oh no!) / I've tasted dying and it tasted good! / I've tasted heartbreak (Wah) / I've tasted food (Uh oh) / I've tasted dying and it tasted good!
> I should be making you happy / Lord knows I'm trying / But the things you can't see / Make it harder to breathe
> You can't see the forest / If the trees never stop burning / Sounds like a joke when told to me / I should be learning / Feeling ashamed of an empty threat / "I can still change if I want to"
> No one else can help you / No one else can help you / No one else can help you
> Call me fighter / I'll mop the floor with you / Call me lover / I'll take you for a drink or two / You'll get older / And maybe then you'll feel some control
> Today has a way of scarring your eyes / With negative light, but it's a disguise / I put on my shades and see through the lies / The convenient truth is / Light is on the way, we'll be having a fun time / It's such a lovely day, we should pocket the sunshine / And never give it back, even if there's a heat wave
> I know (I know) / That every bomb has a silver lining / I know (I know) / It won't be long until / Everything works out nice in the end
> I go for a walk, the sidewalk is cracked / I'm not superstitious, but I made a pact / With old Mother Earth, she'd get off my back / If I get off hers
> I know (I know) / That in a snap, all the birds will sing / I know (I know) / I'm full of crap, but still
> Wild women don't get the blues / But I find that / Lately I've been crying like a / Tall child / So please hurry leave me / I can't breathe / Please don't say you love me / 胸がはち切れそうで [My heart feels like it's going to burst]
> And I was so young / When I behaved / Twenty five / Yet now I find / I've grown into / A tall child / And I don't wanna go home yet / Let me walk to the top of the big night sky
> When you're a flightless bird with wings / Sometimes the humor of a bitter god just loses all its novelty
> Replaying the gory scene incessantly / Forgot the safe word was "imaginary" / Forgot about my poor selective memory
> Means that never reach an end / That's what you get for living in your head / You breathe 3 A.M. breath / And tell yourself that this is for the best / You tell yourself that this is for the best
> Yeah, the world's got its worries / Life's got us all in a hurry / Stuck on a loop overthinkin' all of our pain / It's okay to frown, smile upside down / Feeling kinda blue like the sky right now / No way (no way), we're gonna work it out / It's a feelin' that I'm havin', and I'll have it right now / It comes and goes away / In time, my scars will fade / The look that's on my face / Is temporarily upside down / It's okay to frown
> This boy's too young to be singing / The blues, ah, ah / So goodbye yellow brick road / Where the dogs of society howl / You can't plant me in your penthouse / I'm going back to my plough
> Oh, I've finally decided my future lies / Beyond the yellow brick road
> Heart-for-brains, you should have known / Take a seat with the weak / But, stand up for me, stand up for me / Mercilessly slaughtering
> Life's hard when you're soft / You've got our love
> Shit-for-brains, you're living proof / That it pays to be hard on those around you / But the wolves who guard their wounds / Hide their limps, and their health are all eaten too / They're all eaten too
> Swim in circles, water fills your lungs / And why should anyone else offer their help? / I mean, just look at the way you never took care of yourself / I'll be numb, but I'll be free / My friends will keep me honest
> What's it like to be alone on a Sunday / Remembering the time you saw them just yesterday? / Sing me a song, tell me your thoughts / I could listen to you all night long / And I don't care about my sleeping routine / I fucked it up as it is, but we've got so much time to kill / As the night rocks me to sleep
> don't care about what people think of me / I'm fucked up as it is, but we've got so much time to kill / And so many things to see / Life's too short / To worry about things that we got wrong / So hug all your friends and let them know / You're not letting go / No, I won't let go, oh
> You don't know what it's like to be nothing at all / When the night turns cold my thoughts feel like stone / And it's nothing I can't change / But I can't breathe anymore / I forgot how to walk by myself / I could do with a little more of your help
> Hangin' out where I don't belong is nothing new to me / I get tired, and I get sick, and then I lose the strength to leave
> Nothing I do is ever good / Nothing I do is ever good enough / Nothing I do is ever good
> I can't help but repeat myself / I know it's not your fault / Still lately, I begin to shake / For no reason at all
> Time will try to change you / Undress you, rearange you / We could be the hassle / Crazy crunchy vessels
> [mainly just the vibe of this song tbh]
> You look indescribably good irrevocably grand / With you by my side is where I wanna stand
> Cause we've found ourselves in quite a situation / And when I'm by your side I feel elation / You kiss me slow but without hesitation / You threw me straight into / Inarticulation
> And are you pretty or handsome / My words are on ransom / Are you dashing or gorgeous / My vocab's atrocious
> Say what you mean, I wanna be with you
> I can't take it / All I want's right in front of me / I can't fake this / Say what you mean, I wanna be with you
> And it's almost unnatural how lame I act around you / Give me a chance to say what I mean
> Reach in my chest and do your best / To locate a heart in this pitiful mess
> But I'm lucky to be here / Cause I know it's good that we fit just like we should
> Nothing much has come from simple guys like me / And I am not the type who likes to brag / But if this world could ever separate you and me / I'd miss you eternally
> What is this feeling I have for you, it's like / Like I'm barely breathing, and my lungs fall through / Someone please bring me an aspirin or an Advil for the pounding in my head / Am I dead? / What am I doing? I can not fall in love / With a human who only thinks of themselves / This is ridiculous I need to get ahold of myself / Before I melt / What is this feeling? It's love
> You're so cool in your platform shoes / Still shorter than me when you wear them too / Its cute when you say / I don't have to change
> Just gotta figure this out / I just gotta figure this out / You're so cool in your platform shoes / But you'd still look better with me next to you
> Things just really aren't that bad
> I just stay in my room too long / But I finally got a girlfriend, and she's the bomb (right)
> I waited for a girl like you to come and save my life / All the days I waited for you / You know the ones who said I'd never find someone like you / 'Cause you were out of my league / All the things I believed / You were just the right kind / Yeah, you were more than just a dream / You were out of my league / Got my heartbeat racing / If I die, don't wake me / 'Cause you are more than just a dream
> This life is punctuated by some missteps / Failing to glean the right emphasis and the meaning / This life is punctuated like a texting session / Between two overheated, insecure teens
> Trembling jaws can't stop stuttering / I can't see you when I need to / How am I supposed to get through?
> I used to think that Romeo was full of shit / And The Notebook was just my favorite chick flick / But now I get why Sarah was so hard to forget / Is this feeling that I'm feeling, I need more than it
> We got a hundred lists of things we wanna do / But, I'm also cool just doing nothing with you
> I used to think that Romeo was full of shit / But, when I look at you, I think this must be it, oh
> You saw through me / All this time / I'd forgotten / People are kind / I was hurting / And you knew / So you showed me / What to do / You said, "I will listen / Tell it all / When you're finished / We'll talk more"
> Feet firm on the ground / We stood hand in hand / The world seemed to tell me / That I have a plan
> Something new / Something strange / Ten feet taller / I had changed / I believe you / I'm not wrong
> You said, "I will listen / Tell me it all / You don't like the ending / Then we'll find one that's yours"
> I hated scary movies til' I met you / Now we spend the weekend watching top ten thrillers in our bedroom / And I can't even make it past the driveway / But on your birthday I take the freeway just to get your cake / I'm scared of rollercoasters, I'm scared of the dark / Driving on the 405 and friends growing apart / I'm terrified of dying and letting down my guard / But life with you doesn't scare me at all
> No, I don't mind it when I'm in your arms / 'Cause life with you don't scare me at all
> Smile ol' kid / You've got to keep it hid / You've got to laugh it off / No matter what they say / And all the people say / What's it matter anyway / Cause in the end we'll all evaporate
> I wanna run away / Don't wanna lie, I don't want a life
> You need an instant ease / From the life where you got plenty / Of every hurt and heartbreak / You just take it all to the face / I know that you want to cry / But it's much more to life than dyin'
> It's hard for you when you're fightin' / And nobody knows it when you're silent
> And I'm happy by the way / That I made that jump, that leap of faith / I'm happy that it all worked out for me
> Feeling sick of myself / Think I'll try to be someone else
> You said you love me exactly the way I am / And you know I find it hard to understand
> The sugar went straight to my brain / Feel like a kid, I double tap / My chest with my fist / I like you / Say it back / Say it back
> Sometimes you gotta bleed to know / That you're alive and have a soul / But it takes someone to come around / To show you how / She's the tear in my heart
> Songs on the radio are okay / My taste in music is your face
> My heart is my armor / She's the tear in my heart / She's a carver / She's a butcher with a smile / Cut me farther / Than I've ever been
> Always lost when im found / In and out of space / In and out of phase / Feeling deep in the heart / It feels like tearing apart / Think I'll slowly fade away
> The Room is Filled With People That Love You!
> I don't wanna wait around anymore / Even if you can't see / The good inside me / I don't have the time to tell you / Why I do the things that I do / Just please hold on and soon you'll see / That I'm not the villain I appear to be
> I love to exist with you / I do i do i do
> We're here for a good time / Not for a long time / But hopefully we don't get hurt
> I've grown a mouth so sharp and cruel / It's all that I can give to you, my dear / And when you come in quick to steal a kiss / My teeth will only cut your lips, my dear / And I know that you mean so well / But I am not a vessel for your good intent
> I don't know if there's too much inside of my head / Or not enough
> And I don't know what's wrong / I, I, I wanna drown in your arms / Wanna drown in your arms / Is that okay?
> Je cache ma lumière / Sous ce manteau noir / Cette écharpe rouge / Ce chapeau / Je cache mon coeur / Sous ma carapace/ J'ai bien trop peur qu'il ne se lasse / Qu'il ne se casse / J'ai lu dans le journal / Écrit en lettre capitales / "Un monstre à Paris" [I hide my light / Under this black coat / This red scarf / This hat / I hide my heart / Under my shell / I'm too afraid he'll get tired / That it doesn't break / I read in the newspaper / Written in capital letters / "A monster in Paris"]
> Je cache mes espoirs / Je les dissimule / J'ai bien trop peur qu'ils ne s'envolent / Car je suis un monstre à Paris / Un monstre à Paris / Un monstre à Paris [I hide my hopes / I hide them / I'm too afraid they'll fly away / Because I'm a monster in Paris / A monster in Paris / A monster in Paris]
> I've rejected affection / For years and years / Now I have it and damn it / It's kind of weird / He tells me I'm pretty / Don't know how to respond / I tell him that he's pretty too / Can I say that? Don't have a clue
> 'Cause I think I've fallen / In love this time / I blinked and suddenly I had a valentine (be my valentine)
> I've lost all control of my heartbeat now / Got caught in a romance with him somehow / I still feel a shock through every bone / When I hear an, "I love you" / 'Cause now I've got someone to lose / The first one to ever like me back / I'm seconds away from a heart attack / How the hell did I fall in love this time? / And honestly, I can't believe I get to call you mine / I blinked and suddenly / I had a valentine / Valentine
> I forgot how it feels to love / Taken by someone who makes me better / I'm never patient I just give up / You stuck around despite the weather / If I bug you / Do you run around or ask for a redo? / I guess it worked out
> I like the way that you hold me / When you're still talking in your sleep / It keeps me up a while / All that I can do is smile
> bite my tongue, to stop myself professing love. / The words are too weighted for me to comprehend. / I try to contact you but I do it with a glance, / I do it with the silences we share when no one's looking.
> You took a heart and finally unlocked it's / open in arms length, you don't even clock it / You took a soul that wandered alone and / gave her a partner, didn't even bother to / Realise you're doing it / No you don't even realise you're doing it / Realise you're doing it
> I can't always have it all, / I can't have my cake and eat it too, / But my hand longs for yours, / It would be so funny if it wasn't true, / Yeah no one in my head can see my point of view.
> I wish you knew how I feel / I wish you knew I was real / I wish a person like you / Would like a person like me / It's the reason I hide, always aside / Afraid that nobody will think I'm special
> I talk too much, you know I told 'em everything / I told them that I'd like to disappear / I told them that I have nobody here
> I was in the other room / Just laying on the carpet / Sinking like a summer moon / Slipping through a tar pit / You weren't meant to see that / You weren't meant to see that
> You weren't meant to see that / All the shit I should hold back / 'Cause it's all in my head and I can see it through your swampy eyes / That I won't always be the only one for you
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